I'm 19 years old, 1,68m tall and I've been suffering from EDs for several years.
After 2 years of Anorexia my ED changed to Bulimia and I gained a lot of weight (from 42kg to 64kg). I feel terribly uncomfortable and I'd like to lose weight again, but this time I want to do it the healthy way.
But still, it's not just about losing weight. Predominantly I'd like to learn to accept my body the way it is, treat it well and not use food to "solve" my problems. I WANT TO BECOME HEALTHY.
UG: to be happy and feel confident with my body
1. project: 20 days binge free
-----------> 20 days to go
2. project: 10k on 31th of december 2011
ok so i’ve been thinking about all that shit and talking about it with my therapist for the last 4 days (and i ate like pig, just sayin).
if i want to become healthy and recover, i have to start to love myself. it’s never to late to make a change, every day is a new start.
my therapist said: if the only way to become a happy person for me is to get a body i could be able to love one day, i should focus on that. but at the same time, of course, i would have to stop using food as a replacement for my feelings which means: no bingeing, no starving, no purging,… etc.
i won’t weigh myself in the next few weeks. i will only exercise, independently from what i ate that day (when i already “binged”, i’m more likely to skip exercise) and try eat as healthy as possible, not to much and not to little. and maybe i will weigh myself by new year… or not.
guys, i really have to get out of this depression and become a happy, positive person. the way it is right now, life sucks.
something definitely has to change…
i need some goals to get back on track and to motivate myself.
*i have to get a agenda to write down my daily goals regarding exercise
*start running again! i’ll probably sign up for a 10k in december or something so i have a goal to work toward
*NO CALORIE COUNTING!!! i found out that calorie counting leads me to bingeing so i will try to fight this ED behaviour of counting every single calorie and i will try to eat intuitively instead
*i will try to stay binge free for 20 days
*i will try to build up a positive mindset and start to love my body. i hated it for the last 19 years and i have to change or else i will never become a happy person. any advice on how to learn to love yourself???
*set a new goal weight: 58kgs are my new goal weight. if my body is perfectly finde with 56, 54 or 50kg this is ok as well, but i’ll first work towards 58kg